Tears of Heaven
Just for a few minutes, let me catch my breath …. and so I thought … I met my goal today, 10 miles, not too bad. Stepped off the recumbent bike, trying to forget this lingering pains on my knees, the ones that never go away anymore, the same ones that I’ve been adapting too and trying to ignore for a long time. The same moment where I tried not to think about all the migraines and the sharp pain in my chest. I’m drenched, catching my breath as I put the bottle of water in my mouth letting some of the chilled water running down my chest … I just want to sit and do nothing.
When did it get so dark? The winds have been shaking the walls of my house, blowing through the leaves and branches on the backyard bending them over. And so are lightings calling one another, shouting out thunderous sounds between the clouds that are curtaining the shy sun. When did it start? I didn’t even notice. Hmmm ….
I put packs of ice on my knees, getting things ready for dinner. Glanced through the window as water started to pour down from the sky as if tears of heaven starts to fall down. Would you cry for me? Would you let your tears run down, washing down the place I am standing at? Would you cry for the things that I can’t? So this smile can stay in my face as I hide behind your tears for the love I’ll never have, for the passion that was taken away from me, for the pain that will never go away? So your tears washes mine as I give up my passion and built the strength to carry on. So your tears refreshes my soul as I rest it up for the next journey ahead. So the water washes away any trace I’ve left behind and cleaned up the path before me.
The rain keeps coming down with nothing that can stop it. As if the sky is crying so hard. In this beautiful night, the tears of heaven falls down, as I rested my body after a long hot shower. I tucked myself in, closed my eyes, and perhaps I will dream of happiness and hoping to wake up to another beautiful day tomorrow …
November 10th, 2008 at 4:43 am
Well written article.